My Heartbeat

You ever get that feeling around somebody that just makes your heart all a flutter the moment they come around? Well I have...


It's gotten to the point where I can't even think straight when this person is around and the thought of them going away just drives you insane. Your heart goes a million miles a minute from every stroke of their hand and at every mention of their name. All the while you never consider that one day this feeling might go away. You wake up one day and realize the thing that brought you to life just by being there isn't around to make your heart skip with joy. It's some hard shit to swallow but that is always a possibility when it comes to matters of the heart.

Personally speaking, it kind of knocked the wind out of me when it happened and honestly I'm trying to find ways to recover. I usually look for a song that  identifies with some of my pain but no song seems to delve deep enough into how badly I feel. It just feels like no words can express how I'm supposed to go on about my life without that person being there. My heart used to beat like a hummingbird and now it's slowed to a dull pace.

I don't want to say I'm jaded, but just in a place where I don't want to 'feel' and to be honest with you there is nothing wrong with that.  If anyone out there has given there all to making something work or developed many feelings for someone and it didn't work out in your favor its alright to turn off your heart for a while. Feeling like you lost someone you had invested much time in hurts when the fruits of your labor don't come into fruition. The thing that is most important though is to not KEEP your heart in the 'off' position for too long. Take some time to get yourself together but don't miss out on a chance for a new blessing.

You'll find that your normal heartbeat will come back around in no time.

Until next time '...Keep calm and carry on'